Getting things done is always a good feeling. Knowing you accomplished something. Knowing that you can mark something off of your checklist. It is very relieving, and it makes you feel good about yourself and your day. Yesterday, I got a decent amount of things done, but I'm hoping to get a few more things done today. I have a lot of potential. I just waste it.
This post is about how much I get done, but how much I don't feel accomplished because the things I get done don't matter. I choose to do the things that are pointless. They mean something to me, but they don't do any greater good for the family or for my progression into college. Like right now. I love writing these blogs, and I always feel like I have done something when I complete one, but this isn't helping me get anywhere in life. Writing this blog does not help me with preparing for college in a month, for finishing some other writing I need to do, for reading the book that my college requires, for doing my fair share of activity around the house. This blog does nothing more than satisfy my need to fill the time in my days but thats the problem. This blog is a distraction. It is something that I enjoy, but it is something that keeps me from my real life. It keeps me from the things in my life that really matter. I want to be able to balance my social life, my writing life, and my necessary life as I'll call it for now.
I just wish there was more time. I wish I didn't have time constraints, and I wish I didn't have to worry about life and death. I wish I didn't have to worry about running out of time. I wish I had control of my life, but I don't. No one does. Not really. Think about it. The only thing you have control of are the decisions you make, but other than that your life is controlled by the things that surround your life. You make the decision to have a job, but they control your hours and require you to do certain things and be certain places. When you are married or have kids the other members of your family require you to be places or do things for them or take them places or help them with somethings. The people and things in our lives are what control our lives. The only thing we really control is whether or not we include them in our lives. If we include certain things and not others we can influence what controls our lives and what doesn't. SO more or less we do control our lives I suppose, but I guess it just depends on how you look at it.
Alright reader. I have to go. It was a good rant. I will catch you again sometime. Time to start my day.
Love you all!
~J.a.Smith~
